Re-apareciendo!!
Well here I am again after 23 days of being missing in action. So many things have happened and that I have felt deeply, it's just been a whole roller coaster of emotions trying to be a person with some 'social conscious' while I'm enjoying to the max the ability of 'reducing' my reality to just what really goes on around me. Complicated!
In any case, my social conscious will remain quiet in this blog so let me write about simple-everyday-me and what has happened in the past few days.
October has started being a great month for me, this great couple has taken me as their roommate and it's just great! The peace I have enjoyed these past two weeks has been great to the point of sleeping thru the night without waking up for no particular reason. It's funny my ex-roommate just made a comment about how I seemed happier and 'prettier' after moving in with my new 'landcouple'. This comment came as an interruption of a conversation I was having with my friend S. at work where it has been so hectic for all of us that I had not had the opportunity to tell her about this past weekend when we celebrated my sister's 30th birthday.
The celebration was great, it started Friday night with a girls night out starting at a my sis's favorite bar in Gaithersburg (Guapo's), as we were there enjoying each other's company a good friend of mine called me and just asked me where I was and then he said "I'll be there soon" ... That's what happens with great friends they don't ask they just do :). I figure it would be ok with the girls as well and I was right, he is the only 'metrosexual' friend I got (thank God he does not do his eyebrows) so we can be very girlish with him and he just goes along with no problem. Out of all the conversations we had, the one we enjoyed the most was of course talking about what pleases women and men in bed ... This whole night deserves an exclusive post which will come back later.
Let me just write about the following day, Saturday was a little stressful in the morning trying to coordinate schedules to set up and cook for the birthday party - everything turned out great, we were ready when the first person showed up. Everything was going well, our usual friends were with us despite of the crappy weather, the music was always there stimulating the dancing atmosphere. I ended up being the designated bartender so everyone was happy with what they were getting to drink (got almost everyone drunk) of course the food was buffet style to eat as we pleased. As things progressed, I was in the middle of what at that point was the dancing room ;) and I'm enjoying the music and just caressing dancing movements when I felt this stare directly to me so I acknowledge my friend sending the stare and he looked at me as he had never done before so I paused my caressing dance and asked "what?" and he did not voice an answer on the contrary he signed one - he indicated with his head to go with him ... I was so confused that did not think much of it, and went to the kitchen to prepare more drinks, then about 20 minutes later he came to find me and grabbed my hand and starting pulling me towards a hallways that took to the bedrooms ... damn!! at that point I was still thinking he was being 'funny' ....
Let me add a little bit of background here, there had been certain attraction between the two of us that we have incorporated in our friendship but nothing physical had happened in about 7 years of knowing each other. About two years ago, we had the opportunity to have a night of lust and passion obviously both knowing that no relationship was to come out of that - bare in mind that he was 25 then and I was 32. In that occasion we ended up sharing a bed only, NOTHING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING HAPPENED ... yes I did not insinuate much that night but 'HELLO! I had said earlier that evening: 'we'll sleep together tonight - fair game!" so to me that was more than enough for him to understand that I wanted him that night ... I woke up a little angry, what the hell?? ... He was all talk and no action, of course my mind was going all directions and not to boost my self steem to say the least, when I finally asked him what had happened he said that he did not want to risk losing our friendship over a night ... so I believed him and we went back to be ok with each other like before.
Ok, so he is being funny right? (back to this past Saturday) ... so another friend was coming from the bathroom which was in that same direction and I recuperated my hand and just walk to the kitchen to prepare ME a drink! ... Then he came to the kitchen and as soon as it was only the two of us in there he grabbed my hand and took me to one of the rooms (one that is being used as an office), so he started telling me 'you are always saying that I'm just talk and no action' so here I am ... now tell me who is the one just talking ... I could not believe it!! ... As he is saying this he is taking his pants down and I'm just laughing because my brain was in some type of shock obviously I did not find this to be at all sexy or stimulating - so he kept telling me "ok here I am, don't you want me" ... I said "no, and much less like this" so his drunken mind acted on those words and he came closer to me and started to whisper - my nervous laugh decides to go quiet - and I started to contemplate the idea of just going along and probably enjoying a little bit but as soon as he started to try to undress me - I'm like 'HELL NO!! ... yes I am going to some sexual drought here but I'm not about to do it here like this' - this is what I'm telling myself, I only said to him "stop, not here, not like this", so he grabbed my hand and made me felt him - I pulled my hand away and repeated "not here, not like this" so he said - "you see at the end you are the one who is only talk, now how the hell do I go back outside being this hard?" ... that's when my laugh came back .... I could not help it and starting laughing again ... but then a heavy silent overcame the room ... I could not just walk out because he was blocking the door so I waited until he considered it was ok to come out ...
After that, the party continue and for a good hour I was avoiding him then I felt better and danced with him and acted like nothing had happened ... when he left the party he said he'll call to let me know he got home ok or he'll call me the next day - he never did! but I'm sure he is ok and that he got home ok as well.
Yes, I had the opportunity to have a 'good time' but I guess deep down I'm still silly enough to want some type of romanticism involved in my next time - damn! at least some type of nice foreplay!
ok. I will be back with more right now I have to head down to the gym!
In any case, my social conscious will remain quiet in this blog so let me write about simple-everyday-me and what has happened in the past few days.
October has started being a great month for me, this great couple has taken me as their roommate and it's just great! The peace I have enjoyed these past two weeks has been great to the point of sleeping thru the night without waking up for no particular reason. It's funny my ex-roommate just made a comment about how I seemed happier and 'prettier' after moving in with my new 'landcouple'. This comment came as an interruption of a conversation I was having with my friend S. at work where it has been so hectic for all of us that I had not had the opportunity to tell her about this past weekend when we celebrated my sister's 30th birthday.
The celebration was great, it started Friday night with a girls night out starting at a my sis's favorite bar in Gaithersburg (Guapo's), as we were there enjoying each other's company a good friend of mine called me and just asked me where I was and then he said "I'll be there soon" ... That's what happens with great friends they don't ask they just do :). I figure it would be ok with the girls as well and I was right, he is the only 'metrosexual' friend I got (thank God he does not do his eyebrows) so we can be very girlish with him and he just goes along with no problem. Out of all the conversations we had, the one we enjoyed the most was of course talking about what pleases women and men in bed ... This whole night deserves an exclusive post which will come back later.
Let me just write about the following day, Saturday was a little stressful in the morning trying to coordinate schedules to set up and cook for the birthday party - everything turned out great, we were ready when the first person showed up. Everything was going well, our usual friends were with us despite of the crappy weather, the music was always there stimulating the dancing atmosphere. I ended up being the designated bartender so everyone was happy with what they were getting to drink (got almost everyone drunk) of course the food was buffet style to eat as we pleased. As things progressed, I was in the middle of what at that point was the dancing room ;) and I'm enjoying the music and just caressing dancing movements when I felt this stare directly to me so I acknowledge my friend sending the stare and he looked at me as he had never done before so I paused my caressing dance and asked "what?" and he did not voice an answer on the contrary he signed one - he indicated with his head to go with him ... I was so confused that did not think much of it, and went to the kitchen to prepare more drinks, then about 20 minutes later he came to find me and grabbed my hand and starting pulling me towards a hallways that took to the bedrooms ... damn!! at that point I was still thinking he was being 'funny' ....
Let me add a little bit of background here, there had been certain attraction between the two of us that we have incorporated in our friendship but nothing physical had happened in about 7 years of knowing each other. About two years ago, we had the opportunity to have a night of lust and passion obviously both knowing that no relationship was to come out of that - bare in mind that he was 25 then and I was 32. In that occasion we ended up sharing a bed only, NOTHING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING HAPPENED ... yes I did not insinuate much that night but 'HELLO! I had said earlier that evening: 'we'll sleep together tonight - fair game!" so to me that was more than enough for him to understand that I wanted him that night ... I woke up a little angry, what the hell?? ... He was all talk and no action, of course my mind was going all directions and not to boost my self steem to say the least, when I finally asked him what had happened he said that he did not want to risk losing our friendship over a night ... so I believed him and we went back to be ok with each other like before.
Ok, so he is being funny right? (back to this past Saturday) ... so another friend was coming from the bathroom which was in that same direction and I recuperated my hand and just walk to the kitchen to prepare ME a drink! ... Then he came to the kitchen and as soon as it was only the two of us in there he grabbed my hand and took me to one of the rooms (one that is being used as an office), so he started telling me 'you are always saying that I'm just talk and no action' so here I am ... now tell me who is the one just talking ... I could not believe it!! ... As he is saying this he is taking his pants down and I'm just laughing because my brain was in some type of shock obviously I did not find this to be at all sexy or stimulating - so he kept telling me "ok here I am, don't you want me" ... I said "no, and much less like this" so his drunken mind acted on those words and he came closer to me and started to whisper - my nervous laugh decides to go quiet - and I started to contemplate the idea of just going along and probably enjoying a little bit but as soon as he started to try to undress me - I'm like 'HELL NO!! ... yes I am going to some sexual drought here but I'm not about to do it here like this' - this is what I'm telling myself, I only said to him "stop, not here, not like this", so he grabbed my hand and made me felt him - I pulled my hand away and repeated "not here, not like this" so he said - "you see at the end you are the one who is only talk, now how the hell do I go back outside being this hard?" ... that's when my laugh came back .... I could not help it and starting laughing again ... but then a heavy silent overcame the room ... I could not just walk out because he was blocking the door so I waited until he considered it was ok to come out ...
After that, the party continue and for a good hour I was avoiding him then I felt better and danced with him and acted like nothing had happened ... when he left the party he said he'll call to let me know he got home ok or he'll call me the next day - he never did! but I'm sure he is ok and that he got home ok as well.
Yes, I had the opportunity to have a 'good time' but I guess deep down I'm still silly enough to want some type of romanticism involved in my next time - damn! at least some type of nice foreplay!
ok. I will be back with more right now I have to head down to the gym!
posted by Sonrisa @ 9:49 PM
4 Comments:
At 10/14/2005 10:16 AM,
Sin said…
Lol! You are big trouble N! Man...did you have a wild night while I was sitting at home and sulking! :)
At 10/14/2005 1:42 PM,
Anonymous said…
That's my best friend, teach them boys who is the boss? Buenale bicha!! Babosos piensan que solo la sacan y ya perdemos la cabeza...jajajajaj
At 10/14/2005 2:12 PM,
Anonymous said…
OH MY GOD!!! ;-)
At 10/14/2005 3:15 PM,
Sonrisa said…
Hello all!
well thanks for the great welcoming back! ... I will keep you posted since there might be a possible relocation of my blog ... there has been some informational leaking - so I might need to change identity :) ... fear none I will let you know!
S ... we have certainly laughed about this more than usual today!
Hey E!...I guess I would have lost mi cabeza si hubiera sido el niño lindo ;) ....
J ... indeed "OH MY GOD" was the phras I kept repeating to myself that hour that took me to be calmed again :)
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