Where is my car??

It's been 51 days without my car :( ... I reached my car rental limit last week and I'm returning it today whether or not I get my car back - I refuse to keep paying for it. I still don't know if I will get my car or not, the guy has not called me back yet. I have this gut feeling that it won't be ready so I have a back up plan to go home this weekend. Anticipating a negative outcome I called my sis and asked her if she could come get me - she said yes I just need to know what the deal is with my car.

I hate not being able to fight back, I hate not been to get angry and demand things ... why do I have to understand? why do I have to be 'noble' as one of my guyfriends J describes me? He might be right after all, he says that because I'm that way people tend to take advantage. I know the guys at the shop are doing their best to get it done and I want to see a quality job not a mediocre one so I'm expecting great results - if that is not the case then I believe the evil me will finally emerge (hopefully there will be no need for that, not that my evil side is that scary either).

I want to be mean ... sometimes being nice is not nice.

As for the rest of me, well I'm wish I could just see him ... I miss him ...