Not perfect after all!
Well, one more weekend is gone and with it many great and not so great moments.
Saturday was a very interesting day, I got up a little 'blue' probably because I would have liked seeing A and it just did not happen. I was not as excited to go see R that evening any more, I did not go to my hair appointment, so I just went for a long walk to the park with my dog (my loyal companion). I kept postponing blow drying my hair all morning (I need at least 1hr to do so) after I came back from the park, my mood did not seem to improve at all, the couch and TV were becoming more and more attractive and comfortable each minute up to the moment my sis called me. She sounded energetic and asked me to join her at the mall, so I got up and went - that was what I needed to start feeling much better. I met with her and V and then E, I have decided not to spend too much money buying clothes (I'm losing so until I don't get to a size I feel great on I have to be smart and cheap in the buying department). They were at a store close to Victoria's (one of my weakness) and well I needed to buy a bra and I got me the new Angel one - my new favorite! ... it's the best thing ever! Of course I had to complement with panties.
Well I started writing this yesterday and now well my state of mind is different - as expected.
But let me try to recapture the moment ;) ... as we left Victoria's I got a phone call from O who told me that R had arrived and of course he put him thru and we talked a little and he asked me to meet them at night so I knew then that I was definitely going no more 'weird' moods or excuses not to go. I could not leave the mall at that point because I had to stop at the cingular store to see what options I had in order to get rid of my cell phone, D was there the same guy that had helped me last year (at a different location though!). At that point I was already feeling happy, thank God for the energy I get from my loving sis & friends, then R and then D added a little bit more of energy and happiness to my afternoon. I was able to 'upgrade' my phone - hopefully this one will last me more than one year. It was getting late and we were still in the mall so we quickly visited two more stores and run out of there.
At that point, my nerves were all over ... so I got home and got a couple of text message from A, I was tempted to just go with him and break my evening plans left and right - except from having dinner with my bro - but even as I felt bad I just couldn't.
Dinner was nice I love sharing any time with my bro, sis, V, & E and any other good friend that decides to come along, of course they were all teasing me because of my 'escape' which started by meeting R and the O's at a bar close to the place they had originally told me to meet them. They were surprise I got there by myself but one of the O's was the major reason no-one wanted to come along. Seeing R was nice but did not have the effect my nerves were anticipating, of course he was sweet and nice and a gentleman that I started to consider more emotions. We took a couple of pictures (which later got ruinned) and I really felt between three good friends but hoping for some kind of magic. We then had to drive to the other place, they offered me to leave my car there and ride with them but I knew it was not a good idea so I drove and as expected R offered to keep me company. The short drive and walks between parking lots and the places were not eventfull. He kept looking at me like waiting for something (or at least I felt that way).
We got to the dancing place and of course I was not going to say no to the opportunity to do some major cardio activity :) ... I started dancing with my lovable OC and then a friend of mine showed up, I had told him about me meeting with R, so he ended up showing up, I danced with him a couple of songs and then met with the original group again. At that point, OC and I were practicing a couple of salsa steps and R came and told him "prestamela ya mucho bailaste con ella" I was very surprise, and I figure here we go! he took me all the way to the middle of the dance floor and we started dancing. Yes it was different dancing with him that it was with OC and his eyes were just melting me away there were moments when we looked at each other and I was the one to look away because I just did not know what to do. I danced with him in a way I have not danced with anyone else before but I was not going to go for a 'first move' (it's just not in my nature yet) We danced long enough and to many different rithms (my God even reguetton which I hate!). We went back to the group and from that point on he became one more guy (not perfect at all), why?! ... well one particular girl who was someboby else's friend started to go for the 'first and some more moves' very openly and forward. He put no resistance - obviously! She started by asking him to dance, then asked him one more time and this time I did not see him come back, I was able to glance one of her trips up and down his neck.
So that's my R story this time ... he is still a great guy but a guy-friend nonetheless.
Saturday was a very interesting day, I got up a little 'blue' probably because I would have liked seeing A and it just did not happen. I was not as excited to go see R that evening any more, I did not go to my hair appointment, so I just went for a long walk to the park with my dog (my loyal companion). I kept postponing blow drying my hair all morning (I need at least 1hr to do so) after I came back from the park, my mood did not seem to improve at all, the couch and TV were becoming more and more attractive and comfortable each minute up to the moment my sis called me. She sounded energetic and asked me to join her at the mall, so I got up and went - that was what I needed to start feeling much better. I met with her and V and then E, I have decided not to spend too much money buying clothes (I'm losing so until I don't get to a size I feel great on I have to be smart and cheap in the buying department). They were at a store close to Victoria's (one of my weakness) and well I needed to buy a bra and I got me the new Angel one - my new favorite! ... it's the best thing ever! Of course I had to complement with panties.
Well I started writing this yesterday and now well my state of mind is different - as expected.
But let me try to recapture the moment ;) ... as we left Victoria's I got a phone call from O who told me that R had arrived and of course he put him thru and we talked a little and he asked me to meet them at night so I knew then that I was definitely going no more 'weird' moods or excuses not to go. I could not leave the mall at that point because I had to stop at the cingular store to see what options I had in order to get rid of my cell phone, D was there the same guy that had helped me last year (at a different location though!). At that point I was already feeling happy, thank God for the energy I get from my loving sis & friends, then R and then D added a little bit more of energy and happiness to my afternoon. I was able to 'upgrade' my phone - hopefully this one will last me more than one year. It was getting late and we were still in the mall so we quickly visited two more stores and run out of there.
At that point, my nerves were all over ... so I got home and got a couple of text message from A, I was tempted to just go with him and break my evening plans left and right - except from having dinner with my bro - but even as I felt bad I just couldn't.
Dinner was nice I love sharing any time with my bro, sis, V, & E and any other good friend that decides to come along, of course they were all teasing me because of my 'escape' which started by meeting R and the O's at a bar close to the place they had originally told me to meet them. They were surprise I got there by myself but one of the O's was the major reason no-one wanted to come along. Seeing R was nice but did not have the effect my nerves were anticipating, of course he was sweet and nice and a gentleman that I started to consider more emotions. We took a couple of pictures (which later got ruinned) and I really felt between three good friends but hoping for some kind of magic. We then had to drive to the other place, they offered me to leave my car there and ride with them but I knew it was not a good idea so I drove and as expected R offered to keep me company. The short drive and walks between parking lots and the places were not eventfull. He kept looking at me like waiting for something (or at least I felt that way).
We got to the dancing place and of course I was not going to say no to the opportunity to do some major cardio activity :) ... I started dancing with my lovable OC and then a friend of mine showed up, I had told him about me meeting with R, so he ended up showing up, I danced with him a couple of songs and then met with the original group again. At that point, OC and I were practicing a couple of salsa steps and R came and told him "prestamela ya mucho bailaste con ella" I was very surprise, and I figure here we go! he took me all the way to the middle of the dance floor and we started dancing. Yes it was different dancing with him that it was with OC and his eyes were just melting me away there were moments when we looked at each other and I was the one to look away because I just did not know what to do. I danced with him in a way I have not danced with anyone else before but I was not going to go for a 'first move' (it's just not in my nature yet) We danced long enough and to many different rithms (my God even reguetton which I hate!). We went back to the group and from that point on he became one more guy (not perfect at all), why?! ... well one particular girl who was someboby else's friend started to go for the 'first and some more moves' very openly and forward. He put no resistance - obviously! She started by asking him to dance, then asked him one more time and this time I did not see him come back, I was able to glance one of her trips up and down his neck.
So that's my R story this time ... he is still a great guy but a guy-friend nonetheless.
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