Emotional Monday!

Yesterday was a very emotional day, well I think that my mind played a cathartic moment with me and motivated me to express one of the sad subjects I had been thinking about for a while.

It's a little complicated because I'm happy at the same the same time that I'm sad. One of my best friends and my travel partner has finally let herself be loved by her soul mate, theirs is a very romantic story and I take pride on calling this union way before it happen they were just too scared to face their feelings for each other. In any case, that makes me happy because she deserves the wonderful love she is experiencing right now and then some much more ... of course the but has to come at some point so here it is .... BUT that means that I no longer have my travel partner because things will change and yes I pray and hope our friendship will remain strong and will adjust to the change I do get scared to lose her ... here they come again ... I can't help these tears from flowing ... I'm usually not this emotional and tears rarely flow down my face but the idea of distancing from her just scares me. I know it will be ok and we'll both work on keeping our friendship to the same quality we have right now we just don't travel together anymore. Well, as she put it we have to have our 'despedida' this year so we are starting to plan it.

Sunday was a very happy day probably too happy and then at night I was thinking about how much I like to see him even though I know I shouldn't ... and I guess I went to sleep thinking about that and about not having P around to plans trips anymore and my mind woke up to a very Blue Monday .... but then by the time I left work I went to my first indoor soccer practice and got to charge with a lot of positive energy ... my right leg is all bruised up and down but it was fun and I'm looking forward for the season which starts in two weeks ... so feeling much better I headed down to the gym for my 7th (out of 8) week weigh in to find out that I have lost a total of 17 lbs and 7% body fat!!!!!!!! ... that put another big smile on my face because the goal was 16 lbs in the 8 weeks of the program. After next Monday, I will be on my own applying what I have been working on these weeks and my motivation is still up so I believe I will be able to reach a reasonable goal by myself ... well I have to give credit to the mini, my God that little thing has helped me A LOT!! It's what disconnects me from the fears I face at the gym ... if the mini was to leave me I will have to rush to find me something to replace him even though nothing else will have the meaning of this one which I happen to love.

ok ... got to go

Hormonal Mistery!

My God! ... I know it's wonderful to be a woman but of course it's also misterious and painful the way female hormones behave.

My physical symptoms starting warning me about that time that should be every month but since I'm overall special :) my body has its own schedule and way to go about, in any case I knew it had been a while since my last visit so the next one should be close - I thought Wednesday as my breast got sensible with the switching of my regular bra for my sport bra at the gym. Then Friday my mood started to kick in and my male tolerance level was in the negative zone, the one that really suffered that was D ... hehehehe ... poor thing! ... he is one of the best co-workers I've had yet Friday he saw a very dark side of me but as his usual self he only laughed and was a little clueless why I was being such a bitch, of course he did something to spark that it was not completely a out of nothing. As the weekend went by I had an attitude problem ... hehehehe .... which I believe is funny because it's very opposite to my 'normal', 'usual' me.

The weekend is over and so is the bad mood but which has now transform in painful cramps accompanied by the long awaited red visitor :(

Hope the afternoon is better than the morning :)

January gone - 8lbs!!

Obviously I don't have much time to keep writing as much as I would like to but now I have this great new motivation. As a matter of fact, I hadn't feel this convinced and determined to fight my weight as much as I am now. I'm falling in love with the idea of a healthier me, so as my first reward I have said my goodbye's to the first month of 2006 with 8 lbs lighter and with a reduced body fat percent which according to the trainer should be my main concern - to reduce that percentage.

I'm presently half way on my kick off program of 8 weeks where I'm learning tools to then continue on my own - well if I think I need aditional help I would probably pay for a trainer for a couple of more weeks.

Either way, I'm excited and willing to continue working hard for a more healthly and happy me! :)

I'm aiming for February to lose the same amount of pounds or more if possible but I know that 2 pounds per week is the healthy way to go.

yeah!!