New Year - Old emotions!

Well, it's a New Year and the whole excitement about it has faded away already. I believe is great to pick this time to set up new goals and evaluate where we are but anyday can actually be the beginning of a new set of self standards. The funny thing is that I personally can set my own standards one day and then change them the next day - probably one of the advantages/disadvantages of being a woman.

This would be the most randomly thing I've ever written just because I am a little confused and the questions keep popping up from my head and I don't find a concrete answer to make them stop.

I really don't feel anything differently than three weeks ago. I have old (very old) emotions floating around and making me think, and making me feel like that brick wall I had consciously built is not as strong as I thought.

I certainly don't want a New Year's night fling, that's why I did not let it happen. I don't want the weakness of settling for a random visit which comes with no given reason or known emotion - yet I did let this happen.

I guess there is a another transition happening with me now .......... aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!! ... I hope it's just PMS!